New starts

A belated Happy New Year everyone! Hope 2009 is good for you! Someone sent me a text saying make a prediction and we will see what happens- heres mine, I will not have a baby this year!!! LOL!!
So as the title states new starts, that time of year when one is full of good intentions and thinks this year is the year!! Well one new start is Martha starting her pre nursery, here it is called a Cylch Meithrin and she goes every morning from 9-12 apart from a Friday cos thats when we go swimming. The first day Martha spent the whole walk there following me with her hands up saying up up up and crying, nothing to do with where we were going (howcould it be, she had never been!) only because she wanted to be lifted, I think she had a few times over Christmas where she was carried and she likes it surprise surprise! So that wasn't a good start but I rang after 5 mins and she had stopped crying and was all settled. The next day she cried when I left but the journey there was good, also when we got home that day she said more school. The following day (Thurs) I left and there was no tears- great! Again once we got home- more school. So a long weekend and Monday is here again. Tears when I left but fine, yesterday more tears when I left but once we got home more school. Today however over breakfast I had no school, home. Reality has obviously set in, its probably obvious to her now that this is happening every day and is not quite sure about it. Martha did walk to school no problem, pushing baba!! However once we got there she didn't even want to walk in and sat on the back of the buggy board! I have been very good and have just let her go in, she starts with the tears and I have walked away, not even crying myself! I did speak to the nursery manager today to see how she is settling in and she said that the last couple of days she has been more vocal. I am sure its all very daunting for her especially as they speak in both English and Welsh (prep for her primary school) Martha has been talking a lot of giberish lately and I am not sure if thats her copying the welsh!! Its so funny. Another thing which became apparant today (not ure if this is because of nursery or not) was that she can stand up for herself. I had a friend round with her little boy and he tried to take a couple of toys off her and on more than one occassion Martha decided she wasn't going to let him have them!! A result, previously she would let other children walk all over her!
So whats else is new, well I am going to go on a diet and do more exercise but that will start next Monday once I have had my birthday over and done with! LOL! Watch this space. My weight during the pregnancy actually went down and once I had given birth to Millie I was a few pound less than when I fell pregnant, however the drinking and eating since has been a bit excessive- Xmas doesn't help! So enough is enough!
Millie is gaining weight well and is now 15lb 9oz already and is fully on bottle now. I want to wait until she is 5 months before I start weaning but I have git some food ready, I have purreed some fruit and veg and the baby rice is waiting in the cupboard, roll on 5 months.
My hormones have pretty much been ok the last month or so but Mon and today things haven't been as good. I think since just before Christmas things have been pretty busy and I hd Liam and family around for a few weeks so time with the just the girls was quite some weeks ago. Last week was ok but then Liam had only gone back to work that week and then we had Martha starting nursery and other stuff going on. Not sure what has happened this week but had a few moments, not sure if its hormones settling now I have stopped feeding or whether not relishing waking up on my birthday with two little ones who don't know any different!! Today I met my antenatal friends and they surprised me with a load of cards and a birthday cake- full with candles and everything- it was lovely and a real pick up after my little down moments.
I have been trying to upload some pics direct from my phone but its not been working so will post them on here later.